H-E-L-L-O-O-O

Is there anybody o-u-t t-h-e-r-e???

Sorry but ya know lately I just don't know what to say. I'm completely off the wagon as far as weight loss goes. Not even sure where I'd weigh in at now but I know I've gained. I've just been enjoying life, homeschooling the girls, focusing on my marriage and having a good time.

As far as the infertility goes I'm going to be 38 this year and I'm satisfied. My oldest daughter just married and I'm okay with not having any more children. Most months I'm actually thankful when the red stain comes.

Gosh, ya know, I read that and it sounds cold but God really did answer that prayer. I asked Him, "Hey Daddy-if it isn't Your will for me to have more children could you please take away this tormenting desire?"

And He did.

Even though I know the Doctors found NOTHING wrong with me and the Doctors found nothing wrong with my husband and I COULD get pregnant any ole month now.....I'm simply NOT tormented when the red stain comes.

Now, this month I did wonder. It was an off month and I had signs. It was of course a false alarm and I was emotional but not devastated. After two days I was relieved.

Parenting is hard. I can tell you that the teen years can make you rethink a lot of things. God has worked everything out and I'm ever so grateful for my three gorgeous daughters and our lives together and I do not regret one thing. There are those days that I don't want to start over again. Meadow will be 8 in July.

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Time just flies doesn't it?

I've moved onto to focusing more on the life I have, the one I live everyday, instead of coveting one that I don't.

I like where I am right now and I give God all the glory, because let me tell you, after 5 plus years of trying to conceive, begging God and wondering why, its really GOOD to be at peace.

I pray that each one of you come to know His peace whether it be by conceiving or not.

Hugs!

Pastor Jason Kerr-When You Pray

This "When You Pray" sermon is powerful, its awesome. I know when you see the minutes below them you think, "I don't have time for this today."

Trust me, try it.

Jason is easy to listen to, he's funny, he keeps your attention and he is full of revelation from the Lord. He shares wonderful testimonies and well, simply put, I'm moved every time I hear him. My heart hungers for God just a little more.

Trust me, try it.

You didn't stumble upon this by accident.

Committed: When You Pray Part One (Global Force Ministries)


Committed: When You Pray Part Two (Global Force Ministries)

Pastor Jason Kerr

"Ruach" Part One


"Ruach" Part Two


One of my favorite Pastors.

Weigh-In Week 14

Late but I weighed. I am here.

Starting weight/ current weight/ goal weight

198/183/135

I gained 5 pounds in the last two weeks. Sigh...

Wedding things are coming along. It's crunch time!

Weigh In- Week 13

I forgot to weigh. UGH! But lets be honest here. NO exercise.

None. Nada. Nothing.

I'm eating whatever I want.

I've done absolutely nothing positive for myself as far as weight loss and health.

My attitude is horrible.

I just don't care at the moment.

UGH!

BUT I am happy.

I am planning my daughter's wedding. (links to other blogs at the bottom of this page)

I am happy that my good friend Alesha is finally pregnant. What reasons to rejoice. So today I'm rejoicing. Regardless of how much I weigh. Ha!

:)

God Bless You!

Weigh In- Week12

Today's weigh in is very surprising to me. I actually weighed twice just to be sure it was correct. I've been under alot of unusual stress the last few weeks. After being sick, I've had both sides of my granparents sick and hospitalized. Things are very iffy with them right now. I have the upcoming wedding and completely stressful shower that I didn't share here (sorry...I just haven't had the time or felt up to blogging much). Then today begins our 30 Hour Famine at our church and dh and I had an enormous argument last night, in which I took everything out on him and he still isn't speaking to me. Please if you are reading this pray for us, pray for dh's heart to soften and for him to be able to forgive me. We are suppose to be heading up the Famine and its stressful anyway, much less trying to do this not speaking! UGH! I'll be so glad when things in my life settle a little and I'm able to find that resting place in my Father. I need the strength and peace so badly.

Ah, but on to the one good thing that happened to me this week. My weigh in. As a result of all of the stress I've been under my totals are.

198/178/135

I'm down 6 pounds from last week. :)

Until next time....

Oh and thanks for praying for us!

Weigh In- Week 11

198/184/135
I'm up another pound
UGH!
Hoping to get back on track this week.
3 weeks down is too long....
It's not over yet though!

Weigh In- Week 10

Well taking a week off couldn't bring much success could it? Totals for this week are:

198/183/135
I'm up 2 pounds

Of course I'm disgusted. The worse part is that I feel bad. I'm tired and all I want to do is lay around and eat and that makes me more miserable than I was to begin with. I did better today with my eating than I have all week but still haven't felt like getting back to working out.

I'm praying next week I can get back on track.

Happy Resurrection Day everyone. :) He is Risen!!! He is Risen Indeed!

Weigh In- Week 9

I'm late again. Last week I got really sick. Friday my husband took me to the doctor and I tested positive for strep. I got a shot on Friday and thought I'd be magically better by that night. Boy was I wrong. I've never ever ever had strep before and I had no idea what I was in for. I was so sick. I'm still so incredibly weak its aggravating.

My weigh in was uneventful. Disappointing to say the least. I'm just praying that this upcoming week doesn't leave me going in the wrong direction. Have you ever tried eating low carb with strep??? umm I'm sorry but this was one of those cases where I had to have creamed potatoes and soft foods.

Anyhoo my weigh in was like this.

Starting weight/ Current weight/ Goal weight
198/181/135

This means I stayed the same, which I can live with, but weighing in next week..umm I'm trying NOT to think about it. If I'm as weak tomorrow as I am today there will be NO way I can work out. Which means I NEED to get back on track with the diet. I know I can lose if I stay on track. Pray for me ladies. I need it!

Thanks! Until next time.......