Monday, October 13, 2008

I just want everyone to know I'm ok

I'm happy to announce that in addition to Beth discovering she has conceived, Carrie and Sarah have also conceived and I want all of you to know that I am rejoicing for each one of you! This is big news! Three of my bloggy friends in one month! Hallelujah!

I am in prayer for Alesha and Elaine. I'm praying this is both of your months!!! I pray that the Lord open your wombs and bless you both with many children!

Things at home are changing again for me. This year we had put Sky and Meadow in Christian school to give me a break so that I could focus on the process of trying to conceive. I just felt my moods were so unpredictable that it would be best for everyone. This month though things just weren't working out at the Christian School. They have placed Meadow in the wrong grade and she is bored stiff and Sky was having problems with bullies among other things. The Pastor stepped and took care of the situation, he done a fabulous job, I could not have asked for the situations to have been taken care of any better than what he did. Even though, after we met with the Pastor and other parents of some of the other kids, Tony and I have decided that it is just not the right thing for our girls at this time.

So....I am homeschooling them again. Meadow is back in second grade and loving her learning once again and Sky is simply so relieved to not have to deal with all the drama any longer.

You'll be able to find me at Jenileigh's Journey, if I am scarce around here. I'll check in on you gals each week but not daily as I was doing before this week. My prayers for you will continue to go up DAILY though. I love you all very much and I appreciate each one of you being here for me more than you'll ever know. I'm not leaving just sort of moving on for now, you know?

Yesterdays sermon was on changing seasons. I'm not ready to change. I don't want to give up on having another child, but if this isn't the plans of my Father then who I am to question and fight this. If He chooses to bless me with a child He'll just have to surprise me! :)

I am going to try to begin a new journey for myself. One that doesn't include the thoughts of "What if I get pregnant." I've not even taken ibuprofen for pain or headaches because I had read it could prevent conception. I'm just tired of being controlled by it. I'm going on a diet. I am exercising. I am going to do something for myself. I've lost me somewhere along the way and I need to find who I am aside from just being a mom and desiring to mother more children.

I'm teaching 8 & 9 year olds on Wednesday nights at church and I have been asked to help with Children's Church on Sundays, I'm stepping out to busy myself with the works of the Lord. I've spent the last 5 years plus just running in place.

So, I'm not leaving! I love you all! I'm just moving on, and I hope to see you all over at Jenileigh's Journey!!

May God open the heaven's and pour out life into your wombs!!!


Carrie said...

Thank you, sweetie. I will definiteyl follow you at your other blog.

I also admire that you are homeschooling your kids. That's definitely something I want to look into doing. Do you have any favorite websites that you couldn't live without?

Alicia said...

I will be praying as you move on to a new chapter in your life. It's so nice to hear you homeschool your blessings! I will be sure to visit your other blog.

Love Alicia <><

beth ewing said...

wow girl. that's awesome. you go find you deserve that.

Sarah said...

Hey! Thanks for the congrats. I have to say I started teaching a Sunday school class on Sundays and helping with children's church every three months and got my mind a lil occupied and wrapped up in something else and looked what happened. I pray that your prayers are answered soon. Take care.