Friday, March 27, 2009

Weigh In- Week 8

You aren't going to believe this! I stepped on the scale this morning and I was down 2 pounds! This brings my total to 17 pounds. Woohoo! I didn't get to work out as much this week as usual. I have been babysitting for a close friend so I haven't had the free time but I've done very well remaining sugar free, eating whole foods, lots of veggies and some fruit, legumes, nuts and all water. Sunday, I did allow myself a very small piece of birthday cake and a scoop of ice cream. I could NOT handle the icing on the cake, it turned my stomach, the sugar was too much for my taste buds! So I slid the icing off and ate the cake with the ice cream. When I was done, I really didn't feel like I was missing out on anything at all!

My totals this week are:

I'm beginning to notice the weight loss in my body. My size 18 pants no longer fit, my 16's are held up by a belt and my old 14's now fit again! Woohoo! My original goal was to lose 63 pounds, its now down to 46! ;)

No changes in Aiden's situation.

I know I'm not dealing with infertility issues currently, but I want you all to know, I'm reading and praying. Praying for sabbaticals, IUIs, IVFs and adoptions! Hugs ladies!

Monday, March 23, 2009

Weigh In- Week 7

Sorry I'm late in posting this weeks update. I've been so incredibly busy. I weighed in on Friday at 183 so, I'm down another pound for a grand total of 15 pounds in 7 weeks. I wish the loss would pick up speed, it would be nice to be losing more than one pound a week but again, I can live with this kind of loss.

I have done very good in continuing to eat a lower carb diet with my the carbs that I am eating being complex carbs. I have also been faithful to exercise although this past week was aunt flo week so I only worked out three days. I'm still proud though. I pushed through those classes because honestly, I wanted to stay home. So the fact that I went is an accomplishment for me. I'm still drinking all water and taking my vitamins. Feeling good and moving forward!

Continue to lift up baby Aiden in your prayers. I haven't gotten to see him nor have I heard anything about him. By taking the steps that I did to see to it that things were reported I alienated myself from him. That hurts but at the same time I know I did what was best for him. I done all that I could within my own control and the rest must be left to the authorities and to the Lord. I continue to pray that the Lord will move him to a safe haven and that the Lord continue to place a hedge of protection around him until this happens.

Thanks ladies!

Friday, March 13, 2009

Weigh In- Week 6

The scale is still slowly moving down. Today I weigh in at 184 which is 14 pounds less than when I started. The nice feeling is that my clothes have gone from tight (because I was seriously getting ready to move up another size) to a little loose. Especially my workout clothes. It won't be long and I'll have to find something different to wear to classes.

This week I worked out 4 days for 4 hours of exercise. One of those workouts was the hardest longest cardio I've done yet! I loved it! The other classes are leaving me feeling a little short on cardio, we only go 30 minutes before moving into sculpting and I've built up some stamina so I may have to add some cardio in at home on the days I don't have classes or in the mornings of the days I do.....

I'm just proud to be moving in the right direction!

Monday, March 9, 2009

UPDATE: Continue to pray

It doesn't look like anything will be happening quickly. These situations are just the pit to deal with. When we battled my sister in law over her own son all those years it felt as though we always lost. She is such a smart drug addict. I don't physically understand how she can be so tore up only to snap back and know her rights so well.

Since she is alerted that something has been done, she'll hide the problem and appear straight long enough to keep Aiden. Then things will go back to normal and next time I won't be there to witness anything. I know this isn't about me, but it seems as though I will be the one to suffer. Suffer knowing he remained and suffer knowing I can't see him, suffer not knowing how he is being cared for. I know it isn't over yet and I'm trying to have faith, remembering that faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. But the way thing appear in the physical sure seem overbearing at times.

My sister in law kept her doctors appointment today and I'm sure that she lured the doctor in. She's good like that. Aiden's mom called my sister in law at my mother in law's house and didn't call me as she said she would. This proves she doesn't believe me, but believes my sister in law.

It sucks when those in the wrong are rewarded.

Thanks for continuing to pray.

For what the law was powerless to do in that it was weakened by the sinful nature, God did by sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful man to be a sin offering. And so he condemned sin in sinful man, in order that the righteous requirements of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to the sinful nature but according to the Spirit.
Romans 8:3-4

Immediate Prayer Needed

As some of you may know my sister in law has temporary custody of a little boy named Aiden who's mother is in prison. I've requested prayer her and on my blog for him for the last seven months. It's been a hard time for me. I just haven't known what to do or what not to do where his care is concerned. I've shared some of the signs of drug use and things that my sister in law has shown and has done things that are not in Aiden's best interest. I've been told repeatedly that I should report her but that is such a hard thing to do.

I have had Aiden for the last week. My sister in law allows me to care for him every so many weeks. When I left Aiden my was heart was very sad. My sister in law was so messed up. I begged my sister in law to see the situation and allow Aiden to come back home with me and she refused. She kept saying she was fine.

This morning my mother in law called my sister in law's doctor. My mother in law told the doctor of her daughter's behavior. The doctor said that this behavior would not come from the medications that he had prescribed to her. He said that because of this phone call, by law, he had to report her to social services.

In order to try and keep Aiden from going into foster care I called his mother in prison. She agreed over the phone to allow my husband Tony and I to have temporary custody of Aiden until she gets out of prison in 10 months. Please pray that all transpires with no problems. I have no way of knowing the mother's state of mind or heart or even if what she has told me is true. If she is lying to me then Aiden will probably go into foster care, or to some of her family (which would not be ideal), this will be hard for me but I know will be better for Aiden than where he is, although in my opinion the best situation is here in my home.

Please pray in whatever way the Holy Spirit leads you to pray for everyone involved in this situation. I have a hard time knowing how to pray when my heart is so involved.

Thank-you so much.

Friday, March 6, 2009

Weigh In-Week 5 and some thoughts

Yesterday was an incredible test. It was a long hard day. I battled thoughts all day long. Thoughts like "You have too much weight too lose. You'll never be able to get it all off. Its going to take too long. You won't be able to stick to the way of eating you've chosen. One day of binging on sweets won't hurt you." I could go on and on.

These were lies from satan.

I went to Maurices and tried on clothes. That was a big mistake. Somehow I felt smaller than I am. I guess I thought that 12 pounds would have shown more. I was so disappointed and felt so overwhelmed and so far away from goal.

I almost gave in. I almost ate chocolate brownies. While I know that one wouldn't have hurt me I would not have stopped at one. I would have eaten every single one.

I resisted.

I praise you sweet Jesus for strengthening me during this trial.

Today when I woke up I felt much better. Its the later part of the days that are so hard for me.

I weighed and I've lost another pound. I'm down to 185. That is 13 pounds in 5 weeks and I'm truly NOT disappointed with those results. I keep telling myself that this is a process, a slow one, I didn't get this way over night and I won't drop it all over night.

I didn't get to exercise as much as I would have because of the weather. The snow that came in stopped 4 classes I had planned on attending. I still managed 2 classes and I have another today. So three in one week isn't too bad.

I'm doing excellent on my water intake, even with a sinus infection and that is tough because a good cold diet coke would break this stuff up but I'm not giving in.

I'm doing well with my low carb eating.

I really really appreciate your prayers ladies. Battling the weight is a hard journey.