25 Random Things About Me

I've been tagged by Nicole at For Yours Is The Kingdom. I'm suppose to list 25 random things, facts, habits or goals about me. Then choose 3 people to tag. It's courteous to link back to the person who tagged you. ;)

1. I tried to smother my baby sister with a pillow when I was three years old because I was very jealous.

2. I am the oldest of three, I have one sister and one brother.

3. When I was little I wanted to be a nurse.

4. I dropped out of nursing school when my oldest daughter Heaven was 2 years old. Partly because I was lazy, mostly because I didn't like spending so much time away from her.

5. I was molested when I was 10 years old by a family member. I blamed myself for years.

6. I battled suicide (even though I had three children of my own and was very happy) until the Lord set me free 6 years ago.

7. I was saved in the 1st grade and I have little memory of it. It's always bothered me when Pastors say, "Do you remember the day when...." This caused me alot of doubt and I battled serving the Lord and falling away for years.

8. As a result of this I redicated my life more times than I can count and I was baptized 3 times.

9. I finally realized it wasn't *what* I did but my relationship with my Father through His Son Jesus Christ that mattered. #7 no longer bothers me.

10. I've always wanted as many children as I could have. I pictured me as The Duggars before I'd ever heard of them.

11. I've never been on birth control.I've never conceived easily.

12. When I was a teenager, I slept around alot. I use to pray for the Lord to NOT let me get pregnant. When battling infertility I always thought He was answering those prayers and punishing me for praying them.

13. I now know better and I've come to see this as the Lord having complete control over womb. He chooses when. He loves me. He knows what is best for me. He knows what purpose He has for me. He isn't punishing me.

14. The thought of my children growing up and leaving home used to scare me to death. I mourned Heaven graduating.

15. I have a fear of being alone.

16. I've battled my weight since having my first daughter.

17. I love to eat!

18. I love rollercoasters!

19. My first husband beat me. My God given husband adores me!

20.I love to read and my favorite Christian Fiction author is Francine Rivers. I am very close to owning all of her books.

21. I've always wanted a son.

22. My brother and sister are both still in the same pain/pit that the Lord brought me out of. It's so hard for me to watch. I pray the Lord delivers them too. I pray that they surrender.

23. I spend way too much time online.

24. Lately, I've had thoughts that I may not want another child so badly anymore. My youngest is 7 and I have a lot of freedom. Freedom to serve, freedom to teach, freedom to not have to have a sitter. I'll be 38 this year. If I found out I were pregnant right now I'd be 56 when my child turned 18.

25. I'll always leave my womb open to the Lord's will.

Whew....I think I could have kept going! That was fun. Now, I tag:

1.Stacey at Stacey's Thoughts

2.Teresa at Keepin a Close Watch on this Heart of Mine

And

3.Alicia at Consider it All Joy-Infertility a Test of FaithFor Yours Is The Kingdom

Thanks ladies! I look forward to learning more about you!

(Don't miss the post below on this one. I had two today!)