Trying to Lose Weight

Ugh! It's such a hard thing for me to do. I went on a low carb diet before I ever got pregnant with Meadow and I lost 65lbs. I slowly gained all the weight back during the first year of her life. I'm not sure if I've shared my husband's weight or not but I know he's over 350. When I weighed last week I was 195. I was disgusted with myself. I prayed about it over the week and on Sunday I had decided that this was it, I couldn't keep putting it off, I've got to do something. I so wanted my husband to do this with me but he has shown no interest over the last year at any of my hints or comments. On Sunday I announced that I was going to begin eating more healthy and lower carb and begin exercising. My husband told me that he too had been praying about this and he had already decided to start on Sunday too! Now that is a GOD THING!

You can't know how excited I am. Now don't misunderstand me, I know I need to lose weight but to be honest I've adjusted to my weight. It's just become who I am. Once I begin hitting the 200 mark I find the strength to lose a few pounds. I usually get down to 180-185 and then decide I don't want it bad enough to make the sacrifice. So I bounce and I never need new clothes. But my husband really needs this, his weight has gotten to the point that he can't do things that he use to do. Our combined weight gain has made our *relations* difficult and often times more work than we are willing to put into it. He is 41 and I am 37. So because he is on board with me, this motivates me even more because I see that he needs it more than I do.

I've decided to include the weight loss venture here on the Red Stain. Everyone from my community, church and family read my other blog and I have NO privacy, so here I feel I can share it all without having people watching me, so to speak.

I've already lost 5 lbs, probably water weight but I'll take it. Last night I walked 1/2 mile on the elliptical, 10 knee raises, and 10 crunches.Today I moved and stretched but no real exercise. I did good with portion controls and never ate until I was stuffed, just barely full. I'm trying to follow the Thin Within principals of judging my hunger on a level of 1-10. 1 being starving and 10 being stuffed beyond measure. I want to eat before ever hitting a 1-2 and always stop when pleasantly full.

I've cut out all the sugar other than some fruit and I'm drinking water only. Sometimes I'll add lemon and splenda but rarely.

I'll add more about what I'm doing later. Please keep Tony and myself in your prayers. We really need to overcome our poor eating habits, and commit to a healthier lifestyle.

Oh, I'm so glad you all enjoyed the pictures on the previous post. I did fear that some would be offended. You know the greatest victory of the whole thing for me was that I didn't envy her or wish it was me at any moment. The Lord allowed me to go in there as her best friend and support her totally. That is such a victory for me! As always I appreciate your comments, they mean SO much to me. They keep me going, you know? Praying for all of you this night.

~Jenileigh